| ROADTRIP 05, Christy, Jake, Jody, El and Tiffani. |
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so Arkansas REALLLLLLY good
Tuesday-left b4 the asscrack of dawn. got there bout 3. saw granny, went to the house met jakes mom AHH! lol. then went to Jakes Softball Game, then we TRIED to find a good mexican resturant..but everything closes so damn early there!!! so we had to go to Taco Bell lol.
Wednesday-HOTSPRINGS!. went to tan first. my first tannin bed! lol. then went to Hot Springs, it was soo freakin amazing there!!! and omg if u have seen the movie House of Wax...the town is JUST like it...we were talkin bout how it looked like it...and then there was a HOUSE OF WAX, what r the odds, it was soo wierd lol, lots of walking. and takin pics. listned to a Army Band...they were reallly goood, went to dinner at this nice place in town...then to a candle makers store...we boughr candles and he made some while we watched. it was cool.
Thursday-Little Rock. BENNIGANS AGAIN! lol no lesbin cutters tho lol. then to the mall. i want AF stuff so badddd! no $$$ tho lol. came back got JAkes little brother adn went to the SKATE park forevrrrrr. the skaters start smoking and rollin there weed RIGHT THERE outside at the skate park
Friday- MAGIC SPRINGS!, a small white water. it was really cool. my first water park lol. then to Grannys, the best dinner EVER, hamburgers and hot dogs. omg we were in HEAVEN...homade salsa, and cheese dip. damn ALMIGHTY. then to Jakes little sisters Play, then to Benton for Shaved Ice. it was funnnn. lots of bonding. then back to the house for a game of LIFE lol it was actually really fun. a goooood bonding day
Saturday-relaxed day back home. breakfast. and then back on the road. wrong turn in Tupelo, 2 hrrs more lol. it was all good tho. listenin to the boy band mix we went on a quest for BOILLLLED PEANUTS! that we had been lookin for since we got to arkansas lol and we found em!!!, and a unplanned pitstop, thats all we will say tho lol. got home at 11 30ish. and came homeeee.
it was overall. a AWESOME roadtrip.
tomatoes, boiled peanuts, shaved ice, white guys with cornrolls, pork rines, AQUAFINA, lip rings. pot in the skate park, straightening our hair, what r boiled peanuts? bull peanuts?, "why didnt you tell me andrew was hot?", threaphy session on the first day, sneakin in the country club, which slide r u going down?, TEETERS!, horrible mexican food, goooood steak, singing boy bands, losing hats on the highway, chad being a ass, tiffani getting no calls, drawing on the dirty navi, mariah and WE BELONG TOGETHER always on, homeade purses froim a pair of jeans lol, dling laguna beach, etc etc etc. missing arkansas.
( r-KanSaS picturesss )
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[19 Jun 2005|04:33pm] |
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so. wow.
went swimming over at Mandys last night played volleyball forever...WE ARE UNDEFEATED hell yes.
thennn ray dropped me off at Randys Birthday Party. Christina, Liz, Stacey and Andy were waiting on me outside when i got there. got my hunch punch and went to work lol. i justttt missed the baby oil wrestling damn lol. talked to so many ppl. Dominque...whos on lj..i added him lol. hes ALSO Angels brother...i hadnt seen angel since 2nd grade? then saw her at walmart awhile ago and then last night too...talked to Elyse. and met Stacey for the first time. me and danny talked i apologized for the good ole LJ drama...lol. talked to FREAKIN KATIE GOLDEN!, we talked forever about so much. and AMY MAIKE walked in i was like wtfff lol. talked to SOME guy named hunter i think lol...met Tim, met a bunch of ppl i dont know names, Christina was introducing me to tons of people lol. 5 cups of hunch punch wasnt doing anything..then some guy let me have some Bacardi 151...dearrr goddd. "CHUGG THAT SHIT!" lol it was stronggg...my first time.i had a bunchhhh of that and a half a cup of greeeeen apple. i was gone. lol. me and Christina went bedroom searching to see what ppl were doing lol. nothing. just found elyse and randy sitting on a bed with the dog lol. some guy thought i pissed on his SALINE mustang...he came in and was like did u piss on SALINE?!?! and christina goes NO! he was with us! in here! lol.we left tho cuz the cops were coming. i got home...MY CELL WAS GONE i about had a heart attack.....got on this morning IMed Tim and he had it!! thank GOD! he came and brought it to me, and BTW...i want Tim's Car...omg...so freakin awesome....such a gooood time tho i have to do it more often lol
i better have a TON of comments too people.
( BEWARE : tons of pics. )
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| I LOVE SUMMMMMMMMMMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[17 Jun 2005|02:02pm] |
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so wednesday was a AWESOME day. i needed it. felt like old times. it was awesome.
christy came and got me and we put together her NEWW desk and moved furniture in her room...it looks sooo much better and brighter...her dresser was a bitch to move..its so damn big and heavy. moved the old desk down the stairs...that was insane i thought i was gonna die lol it was gonna just slide and fall on top of me...jake came in so it was all good. we cleaned and moved furniture for ATLEAST 5 hrs lol. went to Dinner at BuggaBoo Creek, me christy jake and mrs joanne..it was pretty good. omg mrs joanne was CRACKING us UPPP!!! LISBINS!!!!! shes a LISBIN in that movie. lol omg it was so damn funny....went to target...it was fun jake was hyper on coffee from starbucks and was playin drums on everything he could and me and christy were tryin to find her SUMMER stuff for her bed lol. we stayed there til like 10! went back to the house. cleaned up some more...i printed some pics...then me and jake left..it was a FREAKIN AWESOME d ay....im glad me and christy r good like we used to be. its nice.
Thursday...woke up Ray came and got me and we met Mandy up at Frontera...it was awesome too. her "bro" came up too lol...they know Candace and Kirk Cameron AKA DJ TANNER from Full House, and MIKE SEAVER from GROWING PAINS!!! its insane lol. then i saw CARRIE ALEXANDER!!! i was like CARRIE??!?! and shes like HEY! so i went out and talked to her...got a hug and her # lol...we talked for a few and then i let her go cuz it was her bros bday... after that i went home. Alise came over...we had a tv dinner lol...then went to Mcdonalds and got Mcflurries! lol. they were damn good...then we drove around...IIII drove lol. then came back home...thennnn bout 915 Ashley Rachel and Brooke showed up...we went driving..then went to starbucks...Caitlin was up there...we waved lol. her hair looks AWESOME btw. just thought id add. ashleys peeps were there....then nathan showed...we went to Heritage High and danced in the parkin lot...dont ask lol...me and brooke left everyone....ashley got SOO pissed...i loved seein her face lol. then BACKK to starbucks...Elizabeth, Danny and Jennifer and Rob came up,...talked to a tiPsy Liz lol....met Rob. then went back and chilled with my peeps..and went home lol.
todayyyy i was gonna go to Mandys but i needed to Clean...its lookin good around here lol. SHAWWWW came by..havent seen em since my partay...he was on his break..today is jake and christys 5 months tooo!!!...so here i am...dunno what im doin the rest of the day tho..maybe movies with El? dunnoo
every little thing she does it magic
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| i touch u once, i touch u twice i wont let go at any price i need u now like i need u then |
[15 Jun 2005|12:44am] |
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so. i feel like writing.so im gonan write.
i feel the need to be romantic. but i have no one to be romantic with...any takers?.........didnt think so.
laying on the ground on a hot summer night lookin at the stars. thats hot as fuck. quiet. silence. and then deep conversations and a lil holding hands. i need that. i dont see it happening tho.
summer is romantic to me. summer is the best season. its officially a week away.
i need to have a deep conversation. ive wanted to just dive into 2 convos tonight and just start spilling and venting...once to mandy..but i barely know her...and at starbucks...haylee, liz and jennifer were having a good convo...i just wanted to jump in. i dont think i can remember the last time i had a good deep conversation with someone...i need one bad.
this cd is damn good. OC vol. 2. theres two Covers that i know of on here. Jem-Maybe Im Amazed which is a Paul McCartney song, and Nada Surf-If You Leave is a OMD cover from the 80s and Pretty in Pink soundtrack.
i need to download Alanis Morrisettes new cd...the Jagged Little Pill ACOUSTIC...10 year anniversary of the cd
colton is on vacation in MARYLAND, who the hell goes on vacation in MARYLAND? he told me to tell all his friend he misses them...his phone just went dead.
if u leave. i wont cry. i wont waste a single day.
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| ur the only one that i know will keep them... |
[14 Jun 2005|11:16pm] |
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so yesterday. lunch with Brittany Cofer. always good. mmm Los Charros. went to Target and Hobby Lobby, and Dollar Store for her Apartment stuff...picked out some awesome art work...she posted pics of it on her lj if u wanna see...i can say i helped lol. and it was goood prices. then last night STAR WARS 3 with Chadley....shockingly i liked it. it was REALLLY good. hit up the taco bell. so damn good. and Starbucks. they were both pretty packed. saw Bryn Allison and Tommy at Starbucks, sat and chilled with them for awhile. then came home
todayyy. dinner with the mom. COZUMEL, duh. Luke came over and showed me his newww laptop we messed with it for awhile. then Jake came over...thenn Christy...that was the first time n awhile christy has been over....me and T had a talk about this tonight...its almost like shes become her old self? i dunno how to describe it...but christy had to go home...we chilled her for a lil while then went for a drive in lukes car...stopped at starbucks...liz, HAYLEE, and jennifer were up there. did the haylee+me hug when i left duh. came home now here we are.
2morrow. church?
last night i almost let myself slip up and start liking someone, again...but i didnt. so im good
I've been a bad, bad kid for so long
I don't know how to change what went wrong
Daddy's little slugger then he went away
What did it teach me? That love leaves
I've been down every road you could go
I made some bad choices as you know
Seems I have the whole world cradled in my hands
But its just like me not to understand
I learned my lessons
I turned myself around
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| i think we're gonna b alright |
[13 Jun 2005|11:27am] |
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lets try this again. update #2.
me and *C* are having a talk about how many gaymansluts r in conyers...have u noticed theres ALOT..its insane lol
Friday-my chill night. movies in my room and pizza lol. Meet the Fockers, and Monster's Ball...both SO good.
Saturday-got up Jake came and got me, it was his 19th bday..went to Starbucks, my treat lol. headed to Christys, we all got in the Navigator...me, jake, christy, el, and tiffani, and headed to the mall of ga. me and tiffani matched...we found it amusing lol. and we had the best rock mix cd..so much old school. had lunch at ruby tuesdays. hollister af hollister af hollister hollister lol over and over again, i got 2 hollister shirts. i love em. i think ill wear em today. watched mr and mrs smith at the imax up there...omg that is one of the best movies ive seen in awhile. came home in the rain. dropped el off, and then went to the stafford for a little while. sat around ate some cake, and watched a lil NAPOLEON. then went home and passsssed out.
Sunday-woke up by phone callls. ashley said me and nathan r comin up to snellvile so i said ok and me and him went to brookes. left there when rachel and ashley got there...then to Discover Mills walked around. shoulda bought this breakfast club poster now tat i think about it lol. then went to Moes Crab Shack. it was gooood. had never had it...then to starship DONT ASK LOL. and then back to ashleys and watched the end of the Americans Next Top Model Marathon. then me and nathan came back. the whole way in gwinett and then on the way home we jammed out to NOW 3, its soo old school. its from 1999...thats like 7th grade lol. so much goodness...we knew allll the words to alll the songs tho lol
Today. woken up by Brittany Cofer lol. kinda. "wanna go to lunch" so i said duh. and i need to be getting ready now lol. so im bout to get in the shower and stuff
but my love is all i have to give
without u i dont think i can live
i wish i could give the world to u
but love is all i have to giveee toooo u
hi my name is jody and i have a addiction to pop music.
what can i say im a sucker for a good pop song, especially a good backstreet boys song lol
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| time marches onnnnnn |
[10 Jun 2005|01:52pm] |
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so im sick. summer cold. it sucks
Tuesday went to Chillis with Zac and Alise, then over to starbucks, pet store and the dollar store. i had fun. i think Zac is cool. i just dont know what his motives towards Alise are...so thats the only thing that makes me wonder.
Wednesday. Jimmy came and got me, we went to the Golf Course, he practiced and then played bout 9 holes. i had fun driving the golf cart lol. had a good talk with Tiffani while i was driving. went to the house got ready for CHURCH. went to church met Jacobs gf (of 4 months!) short youth church sermon. went to El Charro after. it was so damn good...i was skeerd tho after Sheas Food Poisoning from there lol. the mariachi band was there that night. we requested La Bamba it was awesome lol. was soo full. went back to the staffords. chilled. got on the computer duh lol. talked to mr bill and mrs jill for awhile. it was there 20th anniversary. went to bed around 3 after listenin to Jimmy and Josh talk to DD and Tiffani til 3 lol
Thursday. woke up bout 10:30, Jimmy came in and we layed in bed and listened to the new Collective Soul cd lol. got up and got ready. Jimmy and Joel went to Frontera with Christy and Jake, i was gonna go but didnt wanan spend the money and Justin asked me to stay ...so me and justin made pizza and talked about alot, and watched Double Jeopardy. i love that movie..its a good one. Jimmy and Joel got back. then we headed to Tiffani's, got soem FREEEE Chick Fil A lol and went to Starbucks. headed to Deannas, which took FOREVERRRRRRRRRRR cuz no one knows how to tell where she lives lol...we took forever tryin to find the right roads and took the longessttt detour. FINALLY got there. went swimmin FOREVER. played volleyball too..there were SOOO many HorseFlies it was ridiculous. they kept attacking Jacobs Arabian Blood LOL. DD's parents cooked hot dogs, hamburgers, and chicken wings. it was damn good. chilled in the house for awhile then went outside and played basketball. me and Tiffani went for a walk...but it was cut short after we thought dogs were chasing us lol. then we sat out on the driveway and talked. it was fun. left bout 10:15 and headed back to the Staffords. Jake and Christy were there. we stayed there for awhile. then Josh took me home. me and him talked about the old days of elementary school lol. i came home ate. amd went to bed i slept 12 hours!! i was so damn worn out and sick.
2night...nada. i dont feel good.
2morrow. MALL OF GA with loo, jake and el. prolly.
After living in the dark for so long a glimpse of light can make you giddy. Strange thoughts come into your head and you better think them. Has a special fate been calling you and you're not listening? Is there a secret message right in front of you and you're not reading it? Is this your last chance? Are you gonna take it? Or are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins? --from the Good Girl (i watched it last night )
( PICTURETIME, from DD's House )
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| the whispers in the morning, of lovers sleeping tight, are rolling by like thunder now... |
[06 Jun 2005|12:04am] |
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i just had to start off with my drunk call with Christina friday. when i picked up the phone..i KNEW she was drunk too lol.
so i didnt go to sleep til 3 Saturday morning and i got up at 6:47 am for SAT. got there...talked to HAYLEEE, then brittany binowski, Kerri Norris was up there, and Cocaine Addict Kristi, and i saw Antoine...roaming the halls tho lol...i think the boy was late or they changed his room.. i was SUPPOSED to be done 11:45-12, i didnt get out til 1:15!!!. i was pissed...me and my bro went to the Auction at Chanceys and of course i didnt get the car. it went to some damn negrosfor 7900. i guess its going back to being a drug car. lol. headed to christys. cleaned out the pool and got things ready. good amout of folk showed up. it was fun. it turned out good. Tiffani was good this year lol. not being EVIL like last year. i met Colton. GOD ALMIGHTY how long did that shit take. him and mr julian came. julian let me have a cd which i do love now. colton got in the pool in his drawers lol. chad didnt show OF COURSE, neither did Justin and Lyndsey. knew it was all coming. but i dont wanna rag on the boy too much cuz his gf is leaving and she had a migraine. Brittany C didnt come either : ( . Joanne bought us Pizza...and they bought me a cake (ANOTHER CAKE) peter and briana showed...we had called em to ask em to buy us liquor..and i was gonna pay...they showed up with Jager and Vodka for me...for some reason that meant alot, cuz no one gets me anything...(not to sound like a ass) but when someone does get me something, EVEN if its liquor..it means alot. they didnt stay tho..they didnt feel comfortable...things were tooo shady. i was sad. me jason and kurt went to go put up our tent. took forever.finally got everything back there and the sun went down.. shaw was drunk. jason and kurt to. we cooked steak on sticks. and marshmellows too lol. it was good night til everyone went to sleep.i was stuck with the drunk ppl lol. and our tent was leakin water..so...i left early. i was n a bad mood. i tried to go in the other tent but they said no.. so i left at 5. when we came up there was a freakin crawdaddy in the POOL. i came home and felt like shit...and i dont know how to describe why...i had been tryin to watch them cuz they were drunk and stuff..becuz no one else was. and who knows what COULD happen u know? i was just tryin to be a good friend. this morning i had to get BACK up and clean over there..i was pissed. i had already cleaned last night. i cleaned up all the shit in the basement and i burned all the shit at the campsite.
today. chilled around conyers with Brooke, Ashley, Kelly and NAthan. went to Frontera, oCharleys, Starbucks, makin the rounds. it was fun. im glad i got up and took a shower..it made me feel better.
so. my part to vent. i think...i am a genuinley nice person. and i dont get it back. and i guess i shouldnt expect anything back but then again...why shouldnt i. i try so hard. i help people, and i do things for people...i went to go help Briana..and she just felt me feel soo good...and it was just ssomething small...she said "thanks, thats soo nice of you" just that makes me feel good. and i dont think its that hard for people to be nice and cordial like that. if im nice, and show u respect...it would b nice to get it backi want a lil recognition. is that so much to ask for?
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| ok...this is a supppper chill type song. |
[03 Jun 2005|11:32pm] |
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so..
wednesday i chilled with Alise. went to Old Navy and around. went up to Tan Em All City, Jessica Statham-Kirkpatrick was there she told us she got robbed right up there at the corner mart and tan em all the day after mothers day.
THursday went to American Tavern with Ray, met Andrew and Aaron up there. ray and aaron played poker. me and andrew TRIED lol. then we played pool and then me and him went to Cozumel for cheese dip and salsa and chips...we had a LONGGGG, goooood talk. i miss my best friend. we had some good times. it was good talkin to em and about so much. we related on sooo much stuff...
today. nada. cleaned. and rested for SAT which is 2morrow
2morrow. LONG DAY.
gettin up at 7. got SAT at 8. its freakin 3 hrs and 45 minutes. isnt that insane?!?!?! my bro is pickin me up after. we r going to the auction at Chanceys...PRAY TO GOD i get the car i want. after that heading over to Christy Loo's , gotta get ready and go check out Slippery Rock. pool party at 230ish. come bitches.. camping at slippery rock 2morrow night too. we'll see how it goes...i will b WORN out tho.
chads not coming. it pissssses me off. when he DIDNT come to the dinner he said he was definatly comign to the pool party. im done tryin, for real.
take a walk
in the cold spring morning air
wear your comfort clothes
and forget the world
when the world is at rest
put the world to rest for now
expierence happiness like none b4
let the air do all the thinking for you
and the world is at rest
put the world to rest for now
and my thoughts arent so jumbled
cuz the night is my only friend that i need
when the world isnt such a mess
cuz the night is the only thing that matters now
put the world to rest
and the world is at rest
put the world to rest
and the world is at rest
for now.......
call me bout 2morrow---404 617 7715
( DiRECTiONS 2 CHRiSTYS (if needed) )
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POOL PARTAY!
saturday. 2:30. @ christys.
u BETTER come.
leave me a comment or IM me or call me or something to tell me you ARE coming
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| shes no youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu |
[30 May 2005|05:14pm] |
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so its been a long week.
THursday Alise brought me, i think the best cake EVER. it was so damn good. its already gone too lol
Friday me and christy chilled some. fake tanned lol. went to Chillis with Megan, Shaw and Tiffani. i ate free. megan and tiffanis chicken and chips and salsa...what more could u ask for lol
Saturday-PHILLY GRADUATION. Rachel, Ashley and Brooke came and got me. we walked in. it was soo wierd. Chase was like omg! (he was ushering at the door) it was a pretty good amount of people. it was sad. i got teary eyed after the video. its sad that i wasnt in any pics u know. hugged all the peeps. except Sammye and JEnnifer of course lol. me and AShley went up stairs and checked out everything. had fun in the stairwail LOL. took pics. then we went to see Ashleys old house and then to Frontera for lunch. it was damn good. started to leave..the car was DEAD ashley was a dumbass and left her emergency lights on lol. and thankfully some random couple asked us if we needed to b jumped off...we went down to see Nathan at work at Covington Athletic Club. then to Ashleys grandparents for Tea lol. then to pick up Rachel in Loganville. got stuck in the ATLANTA CARRIBEAN FESTIVAL traffic lol. i have never seen so many black people!!! we had the Michael Jackson BUMPING tho lol. went to Goodwill. i got some freakin AF pants again and a nice Tommy shirt. and Rachel got a FIELD DAY shirt from philly and it was 2005 lol. how random. then we went to the Monastary. it was about to close tho so we didnt stay long. went to OCharleys. Jonas came up and Nathan and David did for a lil while too. David is bigger then nathan!!! its insane. Jason came and ate with us too...it was a Birthday celebration for me and jonas lol. they brought out a cookie cake with the candles and everything..i was sweating up a storm lol. they got my Dave MAthews new cd yay. and rachel paid for our food. i love her. i left with Jason. came home worn out.
Sunday. went driving. the birthday celebration continued. went to Red Lobster. so damn good. had STeak and Shrimp mmmm . came back to the house for presants and cookie cake #2.
so monday here we are. was gonna go to lunch with brittany to HIBACHI but shes been changing rooms all day...hopefully another day this week.
2morrow. i might come home with a car lol. going to Chanceys to talk to Mrs Joanne about a car on the lot. so pray for me! 2000 Pathfinder. woo.
Friday Chad and April Time. WOO we'll see if they come over tho lol
Saturday. SAT ANDDD pool party. ahh. ur invited. come everyone. bring me a presant too HA its for my bday ppl lol.
so BEAT IT! JUST BEAT IT.
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| how does it feel to treat me like u do?? |
[25 May 2005|12:30am] |
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today...was 18.
it started off good. like any other day tho.i cleaned the house. christy and jake came and got me and we went to the house and went to Slippery Rock (this place is a creek and rocks. its realll pretty and stuff. ill post a pic of it). i fell on my ass tho. my camera went flying, and my clothes were covered in dirt and shit. Christy made some calls. check on Justin and Chad to see if they were coming. and i called Jason, Alise and Shea. i knew Shea and Jason were coming. i kinda think they knew how much this meant to me. Justin said Lyndsey had a doctors appointment and were watchin her lil bro. they would only be able to stay a lil while. Jason called em and bitched em out. Shaw came with Shea. and Justin and Lyndsey showed. and stayed the whole time. Jason and Kurt came and Christy and Jake brought me. Chad called...and asked me if it was my fuckin birthday...this was the by that time the 5th time i had talked to him. and i told him yes. he said he was too tired. (but ironically he was going to Zaxbys to get food) to be honest. that hurt. he had no reason to come. i would seriously drop everything for him.and everyone else. i think...i care too much. my food was good. way too expensive though. our waiter sucked. jason and kurts steaks were RAW. my lil birthday desert was shit. my camera stopped working. so no pics of the dinner. it works now tho, thank GOD. i got one card. and from the person i knew would give me something, Justin, not that i am pissed that i didnt get anything from anyone...but it woulda been nice... ray didnt come. Alise was too busy with Zac. i just dont get it all. why is it so hard to come out to eat for my damn birthday. it must be way too much to ask some people. its all hitting me really hard. i guess any other day it wouldnt be like this. but it was my birthday. the one day i should get for me. but all i thought about was whos coming? is everyone gonna come? is this the right place to eat? is everyone gonna like going here? one of the worst things...planning your own birthday party. i wish someone would do it for me once. my brothers didnt call either. of course my asshole brother wasnt gonna...but maybe the other...his wife didnt even know it was my birthday when she called..she was like oh? its ur birthday?
it needs to sink in that i expect too much out of people and i need to not.
why should i expect chad to come. or any of these people. i think even with the whole Kaitlyn thing. she is one of the people i expect the MOST out of. that person i can trust. and thats why the whole play thing and then the 2nd standing me up hit me so hard is cuz i expected so much more from her....
but....
u should expect alot from your FRIENDS, right?...
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| u got the RIGht Stuff Babbbbbyyy |
[21 May 2005|05:20pm] |
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so ray showed up over here at 6, wanna go to Statesboro? so...we went to statesboro lol. he had to pick up a check. it rained the WHOLE way there...and its really not that bad of a drive. well..went got his check. went to the FIRST EVER zaxbys lol. then went to Erins Apartment. had a couple of drinks and she called and said..i could get into the bar they were going to. so we went up there. Rum Runners. it was fun. saliva works best, u know for gettign the X off lol dancing to NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK. and haddaway WHAT IS LOVE, and doing the night at the roxbury dance lol. dropping my drink twice. being told i look 22. calling random ppl. holding my liquor very well lol. erin saying. WHY ARENT U DRUNK YET?!?! and i just say.."im just that good" lol LOVES IT!, do u love it?! thats hottt. "MELLISA! come on! LETS GO". singing bon jovi and countless goooood country songs. waiting in line to pee lol. it was a great night. we were there from 10:30-1:18 i think it was i saved my rum runners cup. had to have a momento from my first bar lol. went back to the apartment. me and erin made the SALTEST popcorn EVER. drank more lol. passed out bout 3. up at 6. on the road and back home at 9 lol. ray even went to work at 9 too lol.
i hope me justin and lyndsey hang out tonight. ihavent seen em since they came home.
Oh Oh Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh Oh.
Oh Oh Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh Oh.
Girl, yeah baby
You know you got the right stuff
Girl, yeah baby
( the drink list lol. )
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| my lover's gone. |
[17 May 2005|11:45pm] |
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i am thinking too much.
my diet is not going good.its frustrating. jason wanted me to go to the gym with him. but hes got kurt now to pick up. i dont really wanna go now that kurt is going..i mean kurts cool from the couple of hours ive spent with em..but i dont know em, im not comfortable with him. and for some reason in my head i feel like Jasons given up on me...eventho it mighttt now be the case..i still feel it.
my friends are in such a disaray....all of them are caught up in relationships. some the real thing, and others ridiculousness..i know i stand by all that...even if i wasnt a little bitter, or a little jealous and envious of them...eventho the couples who sooo shouldnt be together...i find myself still being envious of them cuz they have someone atleast no matter how ridiculous they may be....i am so sick and tired of being alone. and lonely. some days i just feel like theres no girl in sight..and that i might as well give up. i hate it.
Justins been home since thursday and i still havent seen em. i dont get it. i dont see what happend to how it used to be. when he came home it was a big deal. i saw him RIGHT when he arrived. now its just lyndsey. i do love lyndsey tho..its not like some of the other ppl i knows gfs who i just plain out dont think they should be with...i think justin and lyndsey will get married lol and if they read this. i dont mean to be a ass...but thats just how it is...
the girl i liked. i dont like that much anymore. as everyday goes by the more and more i am unattracted to her. we dont talk. and she bitches and complains more then i do i think. we wouldnt even mix well...she doesnt even like me or know i like her...so why the hell am i wasteing my time thinking about her.
still no word from Kaitlyn.
christy and jake r fighing. whats new?
i hate fat girls.
me and ray dont hang out like we used to. i miss the old summers.
fuck. i dont know why i write in this shit. no one really reads it.
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[16 May 2005|11:56pm] |
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yesterday was my nieces baptism. that was a all day thing. today was boring as hell. ray came over tonight tho.
i still havent heard from Kaitlyn.
Ray went to belmont yesterday...and then went to lunch with Donnie, Ryan, Evie, and Katie Cannon. and a part of me wanted to have gone...now that i think about it..but i know ray didnt ask me cuz it makes him look bad when i go places with philly ppl there with him...but...a part of me still wonders why some of these people never gave me a chance or dislike me so much...example..Katie can put up a good front of being nice to me when i see her in person...but she is a bitch behind my back...she has no reason not to like me...i just dont get it.
i got into it with Katie Golden last night. she says the white trash line of alllll white trash lines..."U DONT KNOW ME" shes sooo ridiculous. her and her "awesome bf"!
June 4th people. Pool Partay @ Christy's House for my bday.
be there. thats all the details i got now tho.
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| i get a notion from the look in your eyes..... |
[13 May 2005|11:34pm] |
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today was a good day.
went over to chanceys and worked, made a cd on the DSL woo., came home took a nap...then Chad came over and we chilled for a good while, and then Shaw came over, chad left, and me and Shaw went to the movies with Blake Tiffani Megan and Megan,...talked to Brittany too....saw House of Wax, it was damn good too. Paris Hilton isnt as bad of a actress as i thought she would be. talked to Rachel H after the movie for awhile...had a good lil talk about Brandon Summers and Brittany lol...went to Taco Bell with Shaw and Blake. i was hoping everyone and there brother would b up there after the show..but i dunno what time it was over.did see Caitlin tho, we waved lol.
justins home. i hope we hang out 2morrow.
as phillys graduation draws near...the more and more i think about how everyone there is soo ridiculous and how better off i am not there. i wouldnt have become friends with this huge group of friends i am with now...i would b soo wrapped up in all the bullshit and drama...and im glad im not. i do miss them. but the people that were my FRIENDS when i was there....when i was the person i used to be...and they people they USED to be...there not the same people i left behind 2 years ago....there older...more im/mature...and have moved on from me...i do miss what USED to be... ive realized that life isnt all about who you know in high school and how you fit in,...or whether your going by THERE standards. and this time next year..those people will (hopefully) realize how they acted in high school, how ridiculous they were, and how immature they were. everyone in general after there out of that high school scene realizes it sooner or later...and im glad i realized it now.. i hope graduation will b a gooood closing to it all and i can move on...and they will all move on too.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams
Listen to your heart...
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| where do we go now?!?!?!?!?!?! SWEEEEEET CHILLLLLDDDD oooo MINNNNEee |
[12 May 2005|10:40pm] |
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so yet another greatttt day. i need this too. im glad summer is pickin life up. i sooo needed this.
got up. did a lil walk. ashley m. called me. we went to the mallll, had lunch. ewww i had mayonaise for the first time i wanted to gag LOL, had good talk outside, went to AE, got me 2 new shirts. Natalie was in there, but she didnt have much to say hmm..., anyway went to spencers too. then she took me over to Christy's, me and jake started on the Gazebbo, it looks niceeee toook allllll day tho, finished that and we HAD to get in the POOL lol, and it was soo nice. im addicted to that pool now. i love that pool. went to Publix saw lukas. then back to the house and had freakin STEAK dinner with the family, stacey and kim came over too. chilled around the house afterwards, made hilarious answering machine messages lol. ohh, and omg we laughed so much...joanne saying. IB profREN, and Afrodesiac?!?! a afro...that sounds like its........... lol, downloading some goood music...i LOVE DSL. fixed christys computer too. came home. driving down the road listenin to Guns N Roses with allll the windows down at night is aMAEzing as Haylee says. got home. talked to chad on the phone...and now im here and i am WORE SLAP OUT. 2morrow is another full day too...i hope
u kno...to me.. a song can mean SOOO much, and can tell how someone feels, u can listen to a song in any type of mood u are in and the song can be the same thing u are going through...but some people just dont comphrend that...
She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I'd stare too long
I'd probably break down and cry
Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine
She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by
Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine
Where do we go!?!
Where do we go now ?!?!
Where do we go ?!?!??!?!
Sweet child o' mine
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so yesterday i did finals...do u kno what this OFFICALLY means?!?!?!?!?
NO MORE HIGH SCHOOL FOR ME!!
i get my diploma soon too...ill take pics and post em lol. went to frontera AGAIN with ray and andrew
today. cleaned. jake called. came over chilled, watched the best show...Judge Judy. went to taco bell and had dinner with Christy. omg has anyone ever seen the homless woman that walks around taco bell??? well she was IN taco bell today..and talkin to her self "i thought u were gonan eat damnit!" soo wierd...it was sad too...went to christys after...SWAM!!! it was soo damn nice...played with the huge bouncy ball until we busted it lol. got dressed after awhile. went to Target. theres soo much cool summer stuff lol...christy was havign a fit...i thought about getting it all for my bday partayyy. we got a Gazeebo and lawn furniture lol. Jason and Kurt came up...went over to Wendys for awhile and chilled with them..went back and loaded up the truck...went back unloaded. at fruit and talked with Mrs. Joanne. cleaned up christys computer a lil too. left. went to starbucks got a FREEEE COOKIE! i think it was some new guy..he was like ur the first guy ive seen to get the pink daisy cookie its on the house lol
tomorrow. putting up the Gazeebo and stuff. OC toooo its getting close to the end.
Friday. work at chanceys prolly. i hope so. i need that $$$$$$$$$
Justin comes home this weekend too woooo
so. ive been thinkin about the birthday its 12 days away (may 24th just so u know)
im thinkin about Outback maybeee on my bday with a few select folks. and then a pool party ? that friday or so???
i think my outback guest list is....give or take a few
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